Well, it has certainly been awhile since I last wrote. Don't even know why I'm writing or who I'm writing for, but nonetheless, I write. These past months have been the HARDEST months of my LIFE. I thought that I would never get better. But low and behold, I made it through the wreckage. Only 2 more weeks of physical therapy. Trying to get back to a state of normalcy. I feel as though I just took a huge exam from GOD. He was testing me to see how strong I truly was. And in return, he practically gave me everything that I've been striving for for so many years: I'm happy. I truly feel like a dark cloud has left my body and I'm starting to live again. I meeting new people, making new friendships, going on DATES (I know right!?) and just keeping an open mind about things. And I'm back to the old pre-diabetes body! For 8 years now, I've been trying to get back to the size I was before my pancreas went kuput. It's been a long battle, filled with unhealthy tricks and diets to try to be smaller. But instead I decided to get healthy and now I'm 30 pounds lighter and back to where I started from. But I think the biggest change for me is that I'm relying on myself for my own happiness and not in another person. If they want to share my happiness, then fine but it's stemming from me this time. And I'm taking things much slower when it comes to guys. Really get to know who they are and a sense of their character before I give my heart away. I'm still a hopeless romantic but I'm definitely able to put on the brakes if I need to. Currently, there's a somebody that I've been talking to that I'm pretty smitten with. But this time I'm taking it slow, no matter how much he makes me smile :)
Things are looking up. Just got a job working with kids at an Acting camp and hopefully I will become an Acting instructor in the fall. Don't have many complaints. Just trying to live my life
