Why do I do this to myself?

Sherry Party is in 2 days so I finally get to wear the dress that I bought during Spring Break. I really wanted just to go stag and then I opened my mouth to my ex, for lack of a better term. He came with me last year when I thought we were an "us." Well I mentioned the dance to him during lunch and he asked me who I was going with and I told him stag, and then he said that he would go. Essentially he invited himself. I said ok because a. I have a problem with saying the word no and b. I must secretly be a glutton for punishment. I know that he's got a girlfriend, a 30 YEAR OLD gf might I add, and that he has no sexual interest in me so why do I find myself subconciously longing for it? *sighs* DAMN I HATE BEING SINGLE!

Moving on... I think I've decided that this will be the way I will stay connected to ppl this summer since I moving out to the desert with no technology for a couple months. I don't wanna do facebook anymore. Causes wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to much drama. I will have my cell phone so don't worry you can still contact me but I just wont be online as much. A blog here and there but I think that's going to be it. Soon enough I'll start telling ppl I have a blog. For now, it's still just for me to express myself...not really expecting anyone to read this, or care what's happening in my crazy ass life.

Now time for grub and procrastination.