Here we go again...Boys.

Well all of the friends are gone now so my days now consist of sitting on the couch doing absolutely nothing because a. no one to hang out with and b. I'm broke as the fuck. That's what I get for not having a job...

On another note, something else has provoked me to write this blog. I got the first txt last night...the txts that seem to come every summer when I get home...asking for...*sighs* sex. That is what my love life has resulted too. Old flings using me as their personal booty calls. I find myself checking up on old loves and seeing whats going on with them. Most of them have new gfs that theyre happy with or others are just content being single doin their thang. Lately I've been frequenting this one guy in particular. Pride won't let me say anything to him because I was made a fool, and I can honestly say it's still a bit hard to swallow. Not because this is the first time this has happened to me, but this is the first time that I had no idea it was coming. Usually I have the upper hand and in that situation I did not. Perhaps thats why all that mess followed. Well anyways I don't know what it is but I find myself secretly interested still in what hes doing, which is strange cause at the time, I basically convinced myself that he was something easily dropped. Well for some reason unknown to me, he decided to apologize publicly. I'm not the type to hold grudges so he was forgiven a long time ago. But what I can't seem to stop thinking about, and perhaps this is why i still feel the urge to see what he's up to, is how unfortunate the whole thing was because we actually did have a lot in common and there actually was potential for something real and long term. But God has a funny way of playing games with me and I guess this was one of them, so I guess I'll never know what was to become of us. Tragic.

Well, back to being a couch potato. 2 week countdown until I'm in New Mexico til July. Maybe the change of scenery will do me some good. HA, The bride just called and asked me if I was bringing a date to the wedding...God, youre a comedian.