*Sighs* Why can't I be the girlfriend? I feel like my life's motto is "Always the mistress, never the wife." Not to toot my own horn, but I think I'm fairly attracted, with a good personality. I'm loyal and faithful....I can be one of the guys, drink a beer and watch some football...or be the girly girl, dress and heels with me all dolled up. You can take me home to moms and the family, or let "Darling Nikki" run wild behind closed doors lol. I do acknowledge that past mistakes have led me to the predicament I'm in. I got my heart broken REALLY badly years ago and for a while, "Darling Nikki" went on a rampage devouring any guy that would give me the time of day. Now that I've grown up, old flings still expect the mistress when I'm ready to settle down. Shit, half my friends have babies and/or married. While I'm not looking for the wedding or kids right now, I am looking for something steady. I just makes me angry to still be getting messages from guys who want nothing more from me then to get into my pants. I'm about to graduate from college. Enough is enough. I don't want to play games anymore. Like India Arie said, "I am ready for love."
I'd love to start going on dates. I mean real dates. The kind where I get dressed up, and the guy comes to pick me up and we go to dinner somewhere and have casual conversation, I get dropped off, maybe there's a kiss at the end (lol) and then if all goes well, there's date number two. I mean doesn't that still happen or am I still living in a movie?
It's been 3 years, but I still miss Delvin. Am I doing something wrong here?
No comments:
Post a Comment