Numb

Smoking a cig...I have no words to express myself properly so I'll let the words of Diana Krall express it for me...

Was there something more I could have done?
Or was I not meant to be the one?
Where's the life I thought we would share?
And should I care?

And will someone else get more of you?
Will she go to sleep more sure of you?
Will she wake up knowing youre still there?
Why should I care?

Theres always one to turn and walk away
And one who just wants to stay
But who said love is always fair
And why should I care?

Should I leave you alone here in the dark
Holding my broken heart
While the promise still hangs in the air
And why should I care?

pretty down on myself right now...like i said, there are just no words i can say. living up to my blog title. im just defeated. its outta my hands now...